A Gift We Don't Deserve

A few days ago I was grumpy. Really grumpy. I had to deal with upset customers, be on my feet all day and had to stay up to finish some planning and I had quite a bad attitude about it all. I was being selfish, unloving, and rude. As I drove home to go to bed God convicted me that I was not being led by the Spirit and was not relying on God to carry my through this rather overwhelming time. After apologizing to a few people I went to bed.

The next day started much like the day before, I was not happy to have to work again. After a gentle reminder from God though I decided that I was going to have a better attitude and lean on God to get me through the day. The day turned right around. Customers were friendly and encouraging, I began enjoying interacting with co-workers and had a rather joyful outlook on the day. God poured out His grace and mercy on me and I was completely humbled because I knew that I certainly did not deserve it after the way I had acted. But God was not finished there. As I was in the middle of folding a sweater at work I could sense God speaking saying, "Don't You see? This is what Christmas is about, receiving a gift that You didn't deserve." For anyone watching, I must have looked foolish because I stood there gazing off as this light bulb moment occurred. You see I have prayed year after year for God to just allow me to understand Christmas in a deeper way and celebrate it the way it was meant to be celebrated. He is answering my prayers, more than I ever expected.

I am left amazed and in awe, grateful for my Saviour.